Category Archives: psychosocial oncology

Jamais reposé

This clinical trial, while I think it’s doing wonders for my cancer, leaves me feeling tired, like the kind of tired when you have to get up earlier than usual to attend a conference for work or something and it’s … Continue reading

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Words matter (Part 2)

The second part I’ve been trying to figure out how I can spend a lot of time writing about cancer without having to refer to people as survivors. For the purpose of simplicity, I’m just going to refer to them … Continue reading

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Appropriate

These are the drugs I take on a daily basis: Bupropion HCL XL, 300 mg, norepinephrine-dopamine reuptake inhibitor; depression. Citalopram, 40 mg, selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor; anxiety. Mylan-zopiclone, 15 mg; insomnia. These are the drugs I take on a regular, … Continue reading

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Nyctinasty

I have an affinity for flowers that close and open depending on the time of day. I was ready to come here and write about how I don’t know why they do it, but that seemed lazy and lacked curiosity, … Continue reading

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The third first impression

Greetings from the bathroom floor. It seems this third cycle of chemo is presenting itself with that most stereotypical of side effect — nausea. I’ve just been hanging out here, dry-heaving for the last 45 minutes. Thought I’d dodged it. … Continue reading

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It is what it is

My oncologist told me I should play the lottery. There’s a fluid pocket beside your bladder, she said. It’s probably nothing, but maybe it should be drained. I’ll let the surgeon decide. She knows better. If it would go wrong … Continue reading

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Good times

The last two days have been good. Maybe I mean the last two days I’ve felt good. I’ve been existing in this state of increasing anxiety for a couple months now. I’ve never felt as much that a human is … Continue reading

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