Category Archives: Indignities of the human body

Jamais reposé

This clinical trial, while I think it’s doing wonders for my cancer, leaves me feeling tired, like the kind of tired when you have to get up earlier than usual to attend a conference for work or something and it’s … Continue reading

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Day three

It’s day three of the ganitumab and MEK 162 trial. Ganitumab is an insulin-like growth factor receptor inhibitor and the MEK 162 blocks a pathway where I have mutations, and that’s about all I can say about that. So far, … Continue reading

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Tapering

I’m in the midst of tapering off the dilaudid I’ve been on for over three weeks now and it is uncomfortable. Or today has been, when I stepped down again. I’m just drinking lots of water and trying to ride … Continue reading

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Precocious

I ended up in the ER last night with a 39 degree fever. I felt as miserable as I ever have; my throat felt like it was pierced with daggers, my head felt like it’d been bludgeoned, I was chilled … Continue reading

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Learning curve

I don’t know the total number of months that I spent in treatment in my life, but one would think it was enough that I would know what warrants a call to the nurse and what can wait until the … Continue reading

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Up and down

I had chemo number three this week. It was much easier than the second (which was absolutely brutal) and I suspect that’s due to the nurse doing a slow titration, starting with a low concentration of the chemotherapy agent and … Continue reading

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The ethics of sparing feelings

Has Chuck Klosterman ever met a sick person? His answer to a woman’s question — Should I wait until my sick boyfriend gets better before I break up with him? — was so completely off the mark it made me … Continue reading

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