Tag Archives: indignities of the human body

Jamais reposé

This clinical trial, while I think it’s doing wonders for my cancer, leaves me feeling tired, like the kind of tired when you have to get up earlier than usual to attend a conference for work or something and it’s … Continue reading

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Precocious

I ended up in the ER last night with a 39 degree fever. I felt as miserable as I ever have; my throat felt like it was pierced with daggers, my head felt like it’d been bludgeoned, I was chilled … Continue reading

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Learning curve

I don’t know the total number of months that I spent in treatment in my life, but one would think it was enough that I would know what warrants a call to the nurse and what can wait until the … Continue reading

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The day after

I made it through and it wasn’t bad. The day was long — I was at the hospital at 9 a.m. and didn’t leave until 5:30 p.m. — but it was long with waiting, not long with treatment. I started … Continue reading

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The third first impression

Greetings from the bathroom floor. It seems this third cycle of chemo is presenting itself with that most stereotypical of side effect — nausea. I’ve just been hanging out here, dry-heaving for the last 45 minutes. Thought I’d dodged it. … Continue reading

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Good times

The last two days have been good. Maybe I mean the last two days I’ve felt good. I’ve been existing in this state of increasing anxiety for a couple months now. I’ve never felt as much that a human is … Continue reading

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